“The Days I Was Absent”

 Ms. M explained how to still still with their hands folded.                                                                              how to find meaning in silence to create art,

how prayer can be expressed through writing. She answered
questions on how to not feel lost in the dark

Ms. C gave out worksheets that displayed ways                                                                                               to continue to grow after their loved ones leave them

Then the class talked about falling asleep
without feeling like they had forgotten to do something else—

Ms. A taught something valuable on how to accept and appreciate
the home you wake in is yours. This led

her to compose a detailed assignment
of some reading material to analyze that concept due today

Ms. S gave examples of how to handle the situation where all they can hear are their own thoughts     and showed that they have enough and are sufficient in their bodies.

The lesson in English class was that the phrase I am
is a complete sentence.

Ms. T made the math equation seem simple for once                                                                                     just before the afternoon bell rang. One that demonstrates that there are a lot of questions,

all the nights spent seeking for whatever it was they lost,                                                                            which add up to something for that one person.

A few minutes after we began, Ms. H assigned an in-class writing                                                              that caused a shaft of light to form in the students’ brains and an angel appeared,

and made the steps clear on what to do to achieve divine wisdom                                                              both in this life and the life after.

Ms. K demonstrated how magnet poles will rebel against one another,                                                      push each other away, and repel like from like just like humans do

spinning until the north and south stay together, just like humans are friends forever:                          quiet and loud, kind and hostile; they discovered that the entire universe is a magnet.

God did not view me as a gem when He looked down from heaven;                                                      instead, He realized that I desperately needed rejuvenation.

I contribute and show up when I feel like it,                                                                                                       I believe that this inspires people, and I find it to be pretty good.

Why then do I still need comfort? Why do I feel lacking?
My efforts result in failure, leaving a void because of my flesh.

I reflect and come to the realization that the story is not about me;                                                          instead, I am seeking to gain God’s favor even while His plan is releasing me.

My eyes should be fixed on Jesus and not on what I can accomplish;                                                    instead, I should faith in His grand plan for things to happen for me in its perfect timing.

It wasn’t meant to come then, and with willingness and submission,                                                          the delight of serving Him will overtake self-glorification.

I would have known things I wasn’t meant to know then,                                                                            wasn’t ready, wasn’t in the right headspace to truly carry out my will.

I will feel happy because I have altered my ideas to follow His ways,                                                          and God will be given all the honor and praise

that I didn’t learn those things                                                                                                                            on the days I was absent.